I’m headed for another manic or mixed-state episode. I can see it coming. I’m running on zero sleep. Cried twice this morning already. If I open my mouth, a million words will come out and I won’t be able to stop it anymore. I’ve become obsessive with blogging, and it’s a contributing factor.
My therapist wants me to take a ninety day break on all blogging until I stabilize. This means a ninety day break on a one-week-old blog. Damn. I really cocked this up.
This is a quandary, because I’m finding this to be a meaningful experience. It’s helping me to work out some of my questions and obstacles.
Isn’t there some way I can continue to blog without it being a trigger? My better angels tell me no; not in the state that I’m in.
So, I am suspending Closer to the Middle for now because I’m getting further away from the middle than is healthy. Hopefully I can continue reading all the many excellent bipolar blogs out there without cocking that up, too.
(like I can keep my mouth shut for ninety days…pfft)
[EDIT: I’m pretty sure I’m going to keep blogging.]