For seven years I was a member of a meditation group. It bordered on cult, but I didn’t care. It’s kind of fun to be a part of a cult with secret knowledge and rituals. It don’t hurt noboooody. Plus, meditation does wonders for the mind and temperament, and lead to spiritual enlightenment. We met a couple of times a week and had group meditations, initiation ceremonies, and retreats. During that period, I meditated nearly every day for anywhere between thirty minutes to two hours. It was a very calm period for me, but there were catches
Bipolar and meditation. Here’s the thing. If you struggle with grandiosity, delusions, and obsession as a component of your bipolar, then meditation can become a problem. It’s a mind expanding activity already, but when you add those components to the mix, things can get out of control. You might believe that you have special powers, for example. It also can make things totally amazing. I was tripping big time…drug free. Also, group meditation opens up the possibility of boundary issues. Group meditation is a very intimate experience.
After having a serious boundary issue with a female member of the group (in a fit of mania), I withdrew myself. I stopped meditating altogether. That was three years ago.
Then a couple of weeks ago, I was starting to sink into depression and anxiety. I decided to try meditating. And within a few minutes, something unlocked in me and I felt good. I felt better than I had felt in months. It faded after a few days, because I didn’t meditate again.
Then my sister-in-law invited me to join the 21-Day Meditation Challenge. I think it’s time to make this a habit again. Even with the knowledge that I might get a little grandiose about it. Meditation is a good thing.
I’ll be sure to share whether or not it helps me with mania, depression, anxiety, or insomnia. And if I have any crazy trips, I’ll share it as well. For example, if I should happen to encounter a deathless, disembodied, thousand-year-old naked yogi named Babaji, I’ll give you all the details.